March 13, 2014

Pops

                The first time I went hunting with my father, after I had moved on from my hippy anti-hunting phase, we went with a young guy named Paul that our family had known for years. We drove up to the North Slope to bow-hunt caribou, a long drive that we usually split over the course of two days. I remember before we left we stopped at Safeway and got some snacks for the trip. I bought, among other things I’m sure, a bag of Garden Salsa Sun Chips, one of my favorites to this day. Over the course of the drive our food all got mixed together and somehow Paul, sitting in the backseat, ended up munching on the Sun Chips. I knew it was happening from the passenger seat, but there wasn’t really any graceful way for me to say anything, and I figured he would stop long before the bag was empty.
Never have I been so wrong.
We found a spot to camp for the night, slept, rose early and were on our way again. Sometime during that first night or next morning the topic of money or snacks must have come up, because I said something like, “Well I bought that bag of Sun Chips and I didn’t even get to eat any, so…” Even as I said this I knew how petty and childish it sounded, but it was out, and it was awkward. We all moved on to other things but I remember my pulled me aside and said in a tone I can’t quite describe, (Annoyed? Disappointed?), “Men don’t talk about the cost of things like that.”

I thought about that in the shower this morning. If I ever have a son, I think I’ll tell him that story.